The Bullet | Granta

  • Published: 02/05/2024
  • ISBN: 9781783785049
  • Granta Books
  • 208 pages

The Bullet

Tom Lee

Like many people, Tom Lee remembers the presence – somewhere out of sight, on the outskirts of town – of the local psychiatric hospital. It was a place that inspired jokes, rumours and dread, a place where the strange and deranged were kept away. But among those people were, at different times, Tom’s own parents.

Afterwards, those times were not much spoken about and before long the hospital closed, as part of the nationwide shutting down of psychiatric institutions. For many years, Tom believed that he had dodged the bullet of the mental illness that had marked the lives of his parents. But then, quite out of the blue, he has a crisis of his own and finds himself returning to the past for clues. The Bullet is an attempt to piece together and understand what happened to his parents and what happened to him. It is also a story about how we have tried and spectacularly failed to care for people suffering with mental illness, and about the terrifying fragility and unknowability of the human mind.

The Bullet offers a deeply moving personal account of what it is like to live with mental illness, the terror and mystery of why and how we break - and it also grapples with the politics of mental health care

Sophie McBain, New Statesman

[A] fragile and unforgettable memoir

Frances Wilson, Spectator

A bold, brave and clear-headed account of the affliction of crushing anxiety. Tom Lee writes with great humanity; I felt - and lived - every word of it

Benjamin Myers

The Author

Tom Lee‘s writing has appeared in the Sunday Times, Esquire and Prospect in the UK, the Dublin Review in Ireland and in Francis Ford Coppola’s Zoetrope All Story in the United States, among others. In 2012 he was shortlisted for the Sunday Times EFG Private Bank Short Story Award. He has also been awarded the Royal Society of Literature’s Brookleaze Grant and two Arts Council grants for his fiction. He currently teaches undergraduate and postgraduate creative writing at Goldsmiths College.

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