Self-Consciousness

Edward Said

Today none of us can fully grasp what my parents’ marriage was or how it came about, but I was trained by my mother–my father being generally silent on that point–to see it as something difficult at first, to which she gradually adjusted over the course of nearly forty years, and which she transformed into the main event of her life. She never worked or really studied again, and she never spoke about sex without shuddering dislike and discomfort, although my father’s frequent remarks about the man being a skilled horseman, the woman a subdued mare, suggested to me a basically reluctant, if also exceptionally fruitful, sexual partnership that produced six children.


Hawk
The Waiter’s Wife